I was talking last night about my blog. I am trying to post something every day. Coming up with content might be the hardest part of this process. The other side is that how detailed do I want to be and allow readers into an in depth look into my life.

My first thought was I don’t care what I post and if I get negative or positive reviews. I am confident in myself and if I would type and share it here, I would talk about it to the world in front of me. I don’t feel shame for my past or the experiences I went through. They are my truths. They are full of prospective from my side of the story. Whether or not someone likes my side of the events has nothing to do with who I am or can make me change my mind.

Though I do believe that strong opinions will arise if I get into intimate details of my life. That is OK. From sharing, we help others share. From our testimonies we could help others come to a realization, standard, or bravery to change their mind.

I have so many childhood traumas that shaped who I am. I think back and wonder if I could change the past, would I? I don’t think I would. The past led me to where I am today, who I am today.

I was watching an interview with Stephen Colbert. Anderson Cooper asked him a question regarding the loss of his mother. It was very emotional. How ever I understood what Stephen Colbert meant when he said, “what punishments of God are not gifts?”

Anderson Cooper

You told an interviewer that you have learned to, in your words, love the thing that I most wish had not happened. You went on to say, What punishments of God are not gifts? Do you really believe that?

Stephen Colbert

Yes. It’s a gift to exist. And with existence comes suffering. There’s no escaping that. But if you are grateful for your life. Then you have to be grateful for all of it. And so, at a young age. I suffered something so that by the time I was in serious relationships in my life with friends or with my wife or with my children, is that I have some understanding that everybody is suffering and however imperfectly, acknowledge their suffering and connect with them and to love them in a deep way that makes you grateful for the fact that you have suffered so that you can know that about other people. I want to be the most human I can be, and that involves acknowledging and ultimately being grateful for the things that I wish didn’t happen because they gave me a gift.